My husband and I have discussed conversion over the past few years. I think the question of conversion comes up because with both want to be closer to HaShem. We spend time studying and praying, and it seems like our conversations generally revolve around HaShem. But we have never made the decision to convert. Not because we think it would be too hard, or that our jobs would interfere, or family wouldn’t understand. Quite the opposite. We already eat clean, and my husband says morning and evening prayers, and we love and look forward to Friday nights, and our families love HaShem, our jobs are flexible both for hours and location. It would almost seem the next logical step. But recently, I have been seeing life in a different light. As a Noahide or a gentile, I am in a unique position to raise a family and live righteously and speak to other people about my life and my faith. Not to just live by example, but to freely express my love for HaShem. It is the Jews job to be the light unto the nations, and the gentile/Noahide to fulfill the correction of the world. I have previously thought that the end result of becoming closer to HaShem and doing His will would necessarily be conversion. And now I am suddenly faced with the idea that Noahides ultimately have a responsibility.
I have read both view points. And while I previously thought I SHOULD convert, I now am uncertain. Is it really a higher spiritual level to covert? A further closeness to HaShem, or can that same spiritual level be achieved by accepting your place in this world, as a Noahide working towards the correction of the nations?