Can you connect me with an authentic Rabbi and Kabbalist that teaches authentic Kabbalah in English?

Name:Jim Jordan
Email:jjordan@embarqmail.com
Details:I have spent a year with Dr. Michael Laitman and his Bnei Baruch Kabbalist group. I am in America and deal with their North American branch. They insist they are authentic, yet something feels very wrong on a ‘gut level’. An increasingly large group of ex-students say it is a cult. Laitman often seems very hateful and judgemental in his daily class. I watched Rabbi Chaim Richman’s ‘Kabbalah’ video with interest. There seemed to be a little fresh air and sunlight by comparison. I am not a Jew. The Bnei Baruch people say that Kabbalah is not about religion and define ‘Jews’ and ‘Israel’ as referencing those that have an awakened point in the heart who can be but are not necessarily Jewish. Is this correct? Please help me, I’ve lost trust for Dr. Laitman and his huge organization that is so focused on the dissemination of a kind of altruistic communism that they call ‘Integral Education’ that supposedly comes right from the teaching of Rabbi Yehuda Leib Halevi Ashlag through his son Rabbi Baruch Shalom Halevi Ashlag to the non-rabbi Michael Laitman. Sometimes I feel like we are all being brainwashed. Please help me.